The End...?

 

part 1. The beginning of the End of "US" 

These will be a series or short story of MY truth, a separation from the one man I ever deeply loved and was naive to believe we would be forever together. 

It happened. The dawn of a new day brought me to my knees in more ways then one. How could he betray me this way how could he to this to his family. It all started 2 winters ago. When I lost my mother and was not allowed to grieve that loss. He told me he was afraid of losing me to the depression. He was desperate for me not to turn into my mother. She was an abuser of her medication. She had many spells. I walked in on her trying to take her own life many times. I of course stopped her.

But I digress, when i met my husband back in 2014 I knew I could not allow myself to love this man the way I have loved in the past. I wanted so desperately to maintain the control in this relationship, but I found that I had none whatsoever. In the end it was he that held the key to my heart and it he who possessed me body and soul.

He always had my best interest at heart, I know he still loves me in some way even now. I don't know what way that is, but I know he does, even when he says he doesnt its just to hurt me which he does hurt me everytime he says it. Everyday I am hurting so deeply and so completely that I find it hard to breath often times. I pray this pain of mine will end soon. I pray that soon he either comes to his seances or once and for all leaves me be.

You see the morning this all transpired I was tempted to look in to his cell phone and I found all of these text it was so hard to confront him. I was so scared and he wouldn't admit anything even with the evidence in my hands he still played stupid. We set aside a time to talk about this, and when we went out he told me that he had feelings for someone else, the rest is a blur. I do remember going back and forth and yelling alot and finding him texting her right in front of me, that's when I knew he had to go! And so he moved out 

And it began...