A New Man 2014

                          A New Start   

  

  One day back in 2014 in the month of October, I met a wonderful, sweet Man. His name is Gerardo, and ever since I allowed myself to meet a man I didn't even know. I fell in love with him. And this is what happened. One day I was at the park with my Mother and my three kids. this was our routine since my then-husband was off with whomever. As I was browsing I came across a post of one of my friends Ana(name changed)she was posing in front f her mirror and there was this sock on the floor, so as he commented that she looked cute I posted that she should clean up before trying to be cute or something,  then this back and forth banter between them was happening talking about me. He said he knew me from school, and she told him she didn't think so because I was older and went to school with her sister. So I chimed in and said that if he had a question he should ask me not to talk as though I wasn't there 😂.  That's when he sent me a message on Facebook. 

 He told me he knew me from school. Which to me was so funny since I am 8 years older than he is. And at the time I was 26 and he was by looks of his profile picture much younger. So I told him he did not look like anyone I knew and he was too young. I only spoke to older guys and girls in school. Well, he was not letting up, asking me serval questions about my page and my life. Such as if the kids on my page were mine, I told him, yes, of course, he also asked if I was married. I told him I was at that time, however, I was in the process of getting a divorce, and with that being the case I would not be able to hold a relationship with him. That my situation was too complicated at that time. Well, he wasn't backing down, he asked me how did I know he wanted a relationship? He asked me "What makes you think I want one with you?" I told him I wasn't stupid, why else would he be inboxing me like this. So I said "don't you?" and he said, "Yes I do, but if you can't we can be friends" I stopped responding after that, I had a lot to think about.

I told my mom what was going on and she said" Delete him, block him" I asked her why, and she said " If Serafin finds out your talking to anyone he will hurt him and you" So I did. I blocked him. And I dint think of him again. Until later that day. 

I dropped my kids off with my Mom at her place. Then ran some errands. My mom told me to block him because he was only going to cause trouble. If the father of my kids found out I was talking to him, who knows what he would do she said. I don't know why I blocked him, I suppose I was afraid of the drama it would have caused. At the same time, Serafin was already causing drama he hadn't even called me all day knowing we were separating for that very reason.  

  As I visited with a friend, I unblocked him. I wanted to see his page again. The second I unblocked him, he messaged me! I was so surprised 😲 and excited 😜 at the same time. He said "Why did you block me mala," I said "I already told you my life is complicated right now but blocking you was mean," He said "let me take you out, anywhere you want we can do it, just friends if you want, I want more but I am not going to make you, whatever you want to do," I said "let me think about it, " He said "Please I will pay, whatever you want today ok," I said I was with my friends and would tell him later but maybe.

   Why wouldn't I just say yes?! I know I wanted to go see this new movie 🍿 that just came out called "DRACULA THE UNTOLD" I was going anyway, why go alone? I thought he was so cute and I wanted to meet him anyway. He had the sweetest eyes and a sexy mouth 👄 But there was the husband thing I had to deal with.

On my way home I got a phone call from the road. It was Him, he said" hey I lost my bags at the airport can you call and see if they can find them, "I asked him "Airport? Where are you?" and he said "I'm in Mexico, it was urgent that I come that's why I didn't have time to tell you anything but there is money in the car visor for you and the kids," I asked him when he was coming home. He said" I don't know maybe never," I said, "what about your kids they are small and you didn't even say goodbye to them, what about them!!" He said "They will be fine they have you and Sam let me know about my bags," I said "Well are you going to call me back?" he said, "Yes about my bags later or tomorrow."

 I was devastated! but not surprised.

My thoughts 💭 drifted back to the man that was dying to see my face today, whom I so fervently dined, Because of a man that didn't want me at all🫥!! Why would I worry about Him?! Was I stupid or something? So I sent this New Man a message and told him" Did you still want to meet? we can go to the movies here at Easton Mall, I can meet you there" And a second later he wrote me back and said "Yes I can pick you up" But I stopped to think 🤔 I don't know him, and I've seen The Vanishing(movie 🎥) So I said, "No I'll rather meet you there it's better for me." So I went inside and put some makeup on, got ready, then thought 💭 "Why am I putting in so much effort, it's just a 1-time thing, nothing serious 🧐  not like I'm going to be doing anything with him" So I throw on something and go.  

 

   I jumped in the car and drove to the mall theater, I wanted to have the upper hand on him since we were just going to be ''friends'' as he put it. My mom always told me "Chris if a man buys you something he is going to want something in return and unless you are ready for that buy your own stuff" So I got my ticket and my drink, and waited on the top floor. After like 10 minutes later, I'm texting him to see where he was since the movie commercials were about to start. He kept saying that he was close by. I figured that he was going to be really late. He showed up 5 minutes after that...running into the lobby. Which I found hot for some reason. I remember he was greeted by some people in the ticket line, and I thought "if he brought a crowd with him that would be it for me I'm out".  But when he got to me it was just him. And he had the sweetest smile, that just melted my heart, and put me at ease. 

      We watched Dracula, and he asked me my age, I told him 24 and asked him his and he told me 23 (yeah right!) during the movie he could not stop fidgeting, and wiggling the whole time... and I kept asking him if he was ok..and he was just taking my concentration away from this movie I was so dying to see, lol. And he kept trying to hold my hand, and even though I liked it I kept taking it away. Until the end when I let him hold it. I felt like I was in high school and he was a crush. We were deffently attracted to each other. I liked the way his hands felt and I loved that he wanted to touch me so bad and wouldn't give up.

 After he told me I was beautiful and I told him about my life situation at that time. I was separating from my husband of 13 years and after three kids it was hard to move back, in with my mother. I told him how he had abused me in the past. How he had stayed out all night, and how he would leave to go out of town without even telling me. Or asking about his kids. I remember he had this look on his face. A look of genuine concern for me. As if he truly cared about what I was saying. Which I never had before. It moved me. I wanted to know more about him, about what was under his shirt, I wanted to know what his skin smelled like naked and sweaty up against mine. I wanted to know if he was passionate like me. After my story, he asked, "Can I hold you?" I said yes and walked into his arms as he held them out to me, in the sweetest way. Then I felt it...our chemistry 🧪 ⚛️ our connection. That electric ⚡️ feeling you get when you touch that certain person. Then I wanted a taste. And as if he could read my thoughts he asked "If I 💋 kissed you would you be mad at me?" I said "Yes" But I was lying and hoping he would anyway. And he did. And that was it for me. I knew right then I wanted more!

    He was just what I needed at that time. I was afraid his kiss would be too soft and wet to enjoy. But no it was from it. It was firmly placed on mine not soft not hard, he opened his mouth gently for me and let me decide whether to go in or not, and I did fully and it tasted delicious to me. It even smelled great!! I never had a kiss like that one. So sure of himself, so confident with his lips on mine, such a firm grip on me, pulling me in closer as if I couldn't be close enough... he was in my heart. I knew I wanted him. I needed to know if he wanted me just as badly.

   We went to my car, but I was apprehensive about letting this man I only just met into my car. So he said let's go to his car. We did and just made out for the next hour or more... It was funny because he didn't even know, what my name was. When I asked him. I told him he made me feel so bad, and I took my hand from him. And he kept trying to remember my name as I laughed so hard on the inside because I didn't know his either. We were so wrapped up in just each other that we paid no attention to the small details. 

 He kept saying that he wanted me to give him back my hand, I said no not until he knew my name, but to be fair I didn't know his name either so I decided, I would just tell him because of course I also wanted to touch him again. There was a clam in his hands, that I needed to feel. We started kissing again, but I still needed to know if he wanted me as badly as I wanted him, (are you paying attention jerry?😏) and I had an idea how I could find out what his disposition was, so I pulled him on to me! And I slid my hand down the left side of his body and onto his crouch area and felt the answer to my question😏 He wanted me bad! After a while, he got back into his seat and then as though he could read my mind (again )he asked me if I wanted to go to a hotel. And after contemplating it in my head, I said yes I would flow him. All the way there I was scared as to what would happen. Here I am putting my life at risk since I knew nothing of this man other than the sweetness I saw in him. And the rock I felt, that I needed so bad. I could have been driving to my death haha!! 😂 

      So we both pull up, and I was so nervous. He got out and asked me to wait as he paid for the room. I got out and paced back and forth many times looking at the night sky, and as I stood there next to my car about to leave, He came out to get me and asked if I was ok. His sweet tone calmed me down, again. And  I said "yes I'm fine" and we went inside.

 When we got to the room, I felt my heart in my throat and we kissed as I stood up against the wall by the bed. then he said "Oh no! I didn't bring a condom" I said "it's okay I am well protected " And we started again kissing. then I said" Give me a minute ok" and I went to the bathroom and took off my bottoms and hoped he wouldn't think less of me for not having on underwear 😂 . So I tried to hide that fact, and to my dismay 😫 he found out anyway😳 but didn't say anything about it(such a 😍gentleman) Anyway, as I came out of the bathroom, he held his hand out to me as he sat in the bed and I walked over to him and laying down next to him he got on top of me and we started making out again. And I just let everything go, and I felt he did too, we let the natural way of our nature take over. And it lasted all night,  we did every possible position we could, it was glorious 🤯 🔥✨✨💫🌪🔥💥 it was fire and ice and we didn't even notice that we hadn't slept. 

It was the best night I had ever had with a man. And it was a night I will never forget. He was sweet and fierce at the same time. He was rough and gentle. I felt like the sexiest woman on earth and respected all at the same time. He made me his that night, completely and irrevocably his!! The very next day, I was so sad to leave him. And unsure if I would ever see him again. But as I got to the office he sent me a message saying that he missed me already and couldn't wait to see me again. I was so happy that whole week waiting to see him again.

    That Friday we met at my best friend's house. And when he pulled up I met him outside and he kissed me with such a deep passion. He wanted me then and there. So I said "why the hell not" to myself. And let him take me there outside in the dark yard on the grass. And yet again it was the best sexiest sex I had ever had!! And after that, we couldnt stop! I mean on the side of the roads in the alleyways, in the bathrooms just everywhere and anywhere. It is the best distraction I cloud have at that point in my life. He saved me, just when I needed saving, even though it was also not the best time, being that I had just moved back with my mom and I was not ready for him to meet my kids of course.  I still kept him at arm's length, so I wouldn't get hurt, but also so I could gauge his seriousness about me and all my "extra bags". Also after a few months, just what I feared, he started to pull away, he told me we wouldn't be together anymore and this was while he was working out of town. That's when I felt the most horrible abandonment once again. I had to go see him and try to work things out. 

 He always found the worse times to tell me he needed space.